To the boys I have loved before pt. 2

Azim,

I dont know how did it happen but meeting you was one of the greatest thing happened in my life. Loving you thought me a lot of things. It thought me how to be strong. You were full of riddles I couldnt solve. But I was willing to solve you for the rest of my life. You were such a good guy. You were my dream guy; my type of guy; the way you love you dont show it but it can be felt. You love to tease. You dont went off sweet talking only sometimes when you're in love. I've watched you being taken away by someone. I've watched you loving someone else and it hurts. You were the first guy who'd pick me up from home. The first who'd take me out just the two of us. I'm sorry for being lame but that's how I grew up. I was forbid by my family unless they trust someone. I'm sure my family tursted you except they couldnt accept that I've grown up and I have priorities too. Thankyou for your understanding. Thank you for all the fun times. I've been in love with you for the past 2 years. And nothing has changed despite you've had a relationship before. I'm still in love with you I couldnt risk to tell. I'd prefere we keep being like thiss. I dont care about my happiness as long as you're happy. I wont know what will happen in the future but me right now is in love with you. And how I know that things will change someday but me right is in love with u and I just want you to know that. 

A week of holiday

Hey bloggy havent seen you in a while. Missing you lots. There arent many things happen though.

1) I thought of selling a custom made notebook which I draw with acrilic paint. But I couldnt find a perfect book yet. Still searching.

2) I had my Midsem Break last week.

3) I went out with him. In the terms of (hang out). We're just friends. I wanted more though but too scared to risk anything. At first we thought of going out on monday but I couldnt, mom wanted me to follow hving dinner with my cousin. So we decided to go out the next day, Tuesday 8/9/2015. I said lets meet off somewhere yet he insisted to pick me up. I love it when he picks me up. So we ate at Soul Garden. Talking. And then I had to rush to the toilet and I didnt found the closest toilet but there was the closest one yet I went to the one that's a little further away. I asked him to look out at my lamba while I was gone and I expected him would let the lamb burnt but he didnt. It was nicely grilled and I was so happy and thankful at the same time. So he followed me to the bookstore and wandered aimlessly while I was searching for books and then I asked him could we go to the Action City. He was like "if you wanted to go, you'll hv to walk home" since he targetted to reach home at 11. I said I dont care, I still want to go. So I dragged him along. He followed though and looked around too. I told him I've been wanting to get this Tony Stark action figure for years, he told me he wanted a flying iron man action figure. We both got things we've always wanted. And so after we go home. i asked him to bring me to the Country Garden and he said "I owe you this one" and I got out of the car. And said goodbye.