To the boys I have loved before pt. 2

Azim,

I dont know how did it happen but meeting you was one of the greatest thing happened in my life. Loving you thought me a lot of things. It thought me how to be strong. You were full of riddles I couldnt solve. But I was willing to solve you for the rest of my life. You were such a good guy. You were my dream guy; my type of guy; the way you love you dont show it but it can be felt. You love to tease. You dont went off sweet talking only sometimes when you're in love. I've watched you being taken away by someone. I've watched you loving someone else and it hurts. You were the first guy who'd pick me up from home. The first who'd take me out just the two of us. I'm sorry for being lame but that's how I grew up. I was forbid by my family unless they trust someone. I'm sure my family tursted you except they couldnt accept that I've grown up and I have priorities too. Thankyou for your understanding. Thank you for all the fun times. I've been in love with you for the past 2 years. And nothing has changed despite you've had a relationship before. I'm still in love with you I couldnt risk to tell. I'd prefere we keep being like thiss. I dont care about my happiness as long as you're happy. I wont know what will happen in the future but me right now is in love with you. And how I know that things will change someday but me right is in love with u and I just want you to know that. 

To the boys I have loved before pt. 1

Let's go back to when we were small,

When we had a fight

And exchanged letters

And that letter passed through the class

But neither would read it

Except us

I miss those days,

When I think our love was very innocent

It was a puppy love but I think

I think it was the sweetest puppy love I've ever had

Your mom likes me

It felt great

I liked you i really do

Back then, we were too young

I've liked you

But I was scared

I was raised forbid to have any relationship

So I was scared

I was thinking about my parents

I wasn't ready.

But i've always like you

And still now I couldn't forget you.

We were a bunch of kids

Too young to know what love is

But it was real

I really really liked you back then.

I'm sorry I pushed you away and lied.

When I shouldn't.