Or so I thought

I thought I dont want to have any friends 

I thought I'm fine being alone

I thought I want to mind my own business and handle my life by myself

I thought I would give up on you since you are back with your girlfriend

I thought I would delete you out of my life

I thought I want to focus on my studies

I thought I want to work part time at Typo

I thought I want to meet someone new and move on from you

Or so I thought.

A week of holiday

Hey bloggy havent seen you in a while. Missing you lots. There arent many things happen though.

1) I thought of selling a custom made notebook which I draw with acrilic paint. But I couldnt find a perfect book yet. Still searching.

2) I had my Midsem Break last week.

3) I went out with him. In the terms of (hang out). We're just friends. I wanted more though but too scared to risk anything. At first we thought of going out on monday but I couldnt, mom wanted me to follow hving dinner with my cousin. So we decided to go out the next day, Tuesday 8/9/2015. I said lets meet off somewhere yet he insisted to pick me up. I love it when he picks me up. So we ate at Soul Garden. Talking. And then I had to rush to the toilet and I didnt found the closest toilet but there was the closest one yet I went to the one that's a little further away. I asked him to look out at my lamba while I was gone and I expected him would let the lamb burnt but he didnt. It was nicely grilled and I was so happy and thankful at the same time. So he followed me to the bookstore and wandered aimlessly while I was searching for books and then I asked him could we go to the Action City. He was like "if you wanted to go, you'll hv to walk home" since he targetted to reach home at 11. I said I dont care, I still want to go. So I dragged him along. He followed though and looked around too. I told him I've been wanting to get this Tony Stark action figure for years, he told me he wanted a flying iron man action figure. We both got things we've always wanted. And so after we go home. i asked him to bring me to the Country Garden and he said "I owe you this one" and I got out of the car. And said goodbye.

"Fav bunch"

It's nice to see someone having "fav bunch"

I dont have any fav bunch. Sad. But that's just how it is. 

Calling off someone "fav bunch" sounds fake. I dont need to claim how much I cherish a person with words. I do it with actions but somehow that's just not good enough for someone to see.

Not here

I really really want to migrate to somewhere else. I dont want all these people. I dont mind living hardship as long as I'm not here and not with these people.

@DixsyDxisy: I'm already bermuka-muka by the time I agreed when you asked me not to tell her. I shouldnt have done that. I shouldnt involved in ur matter

Ownfinridjw

I dont care what most people think. Anymore.

I'm deleting everyone. Out of my life.

Not sad

At this point it's okay to be alone. At this point it's okay. I should just be quiet. You're not important to them. You're important to someone but not to them. It never did. And it's not even that sad. Not as sad as I was before. :)

Hentikan

Hentilah bercakap besar. 

Hentikan wahai diri.

Hentikan.

I swear to god kau lelaki paling kuat pms!

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Usually this day I would be at home celebrating with my family. But not this year. I dont usually like birthdays. It makes you feel older. Well you are getting older tho. And it makes me feel that I'm running out of time; One year closer to death. And the day itself makes me miserable. Like a kind of badluck. 

This year is a rather unique. I'm sure I didnt tell anyone abt my birthday (maybe the past month but that's just my roomates). Actually I even forget when is my birthday these few weeks (sibuk exam). As always, I've never celebrated my birthday with friends (bcs usually no one remembers) but it's okay. Takde harapan tinggi tu bagus jugak. And that's why I didnt tell anyone. Rasa malas. Like anyone would even care abt my birthday. Nak tengok jugak ada yg ingat tak. huhu 

And when everyone wished me in front of my face I just dont know how to react. I'm touched and shy and wanted to cry but awkward and speechless and grateful and i feel so touched that a nobody's birthday like me getting wishes and remembered. (you know who you are 💕) ((rasa nak peluk everyone tp malu and konon nak tunjuk cool)) And then I got a cake! JAKUN SBB DPT ONE WHOLE CAKE! Thankyou Syada for the lovely cake which I still havent cut it. (Waiting for everyone to get back!) dahlah tgh baring-baring tiba2 terjengul kotak kt sebelah kepala. I couldnt say more. Nak nangis tp air mata jantan taknak keluar So cuma tinggal malunya je. 💖 Then mah bro here kunun nak surprise iols dgn bawak belon hitam putihnya last-last satu bocor, terbang tiga biji dek Najla, tinggal satu buat sedut helium. Saya dipampered dengan Chemistry Lab dan Murni padahal before keluar tu dah makan nasi lauk ikan masak sweet sour. Lepastu lepak padang terlepas 3 belon sambil bergelak ketawa, tawaf Setia City Mall. Tak kering gusi layan korang bergossip sana dgn punchline sini dgn hipsternya. I got a very good time.

Thankyou everyone for the wishes sangat terharu sbb korang igt iols yg picisan ni. Huhuhu :') ALL OF YOU MADE MY DAY!!!! 😊💕 (i dont mean to offence and no bad intentions to anyone 😊) #vscocam #happybirthday

Roommates

There would be a time when your roomates hate you and they create a whatsapp group but you're excluded. 

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