Not sad

At this point it's okay to be alone. At this point it's okay. I should just be quiet. You're not important to them. You're important to someone but not to them. It never did. And it's not even that sad. Not as sad as I was before. :)

Normal, Extra and Stereo.

Be normal. Not the stereotype.

Normal is now the extraordinary.

Relationship between God and Science

Science should bring us closer to God and not further away. Science should be the explanation of how did God created something or everything.

#LoveWins

Today is the moment where the united states legalise Equality Marriage. 

1) some peeps say it's okay.

2) sad to see that even the Muslims agree to Marriage equality.

3) As the true religion we shouldn't encourage them instead we should guide them. This isn't called as homophobic. Stop creating these psychological terms!

4) Living and religion isn't just about compassionate, love, peace, it's about being reasonable, relevant. 

5) why are we created in 2 different genders? If we are created man with man and woman with woman, then there should be one gender in this world.

6) but instead we are created in pairs. 

7) the reason is to prolonged our existence 

8) same gender can not breed. WE CAN'T BREED ASEXUALLY EITHER.

9) So gays and lesbians should not exist because it's against nature and irrelevant. 

10) 

@kawaiizzat: @meekvstheworld homophobes need to know that those who have gone through conversion therapy face 8.9x the rates of suicide ideation and (1)

@kawaiizzat: @meekvstheworld face depression 5.9times more, and are 3x more likely to use illegal drugs. pfft "against nature" my ass. (2)

11) these people are ignorant. Drugs? Suicide attempt? That's because you're into Dunya things.

12) that is a signal showing your imaan is low and you need to increase it.

13) Suicidal attempts? I once felt that  too. But that's when you need ur patience. Increase patience to let it take over. 

14) I'm not pious. I'm an average person. I have sins. And I sin a lot whether consious or unconsiously. Know that nobody is as maksum as the messenger and that doesn't mean I can't give people advice to be better.

15) this is the sickness of our people. Wallahi. It's almost the end of the world.

Hentikan

Hentilah bercakap besar. 

Hentikan wahai diri.

Hentikan.

Kind of thing

If I can ask for anything I'd ask for "jauh dari maksiat" I know it's kinda old fashion but I want it that way and I hope I'll find someone who understands. Let's be friends until we're officially halal. I like you but I dont want to have anything with you, I just want you to know that I like you and I want to keep being friends and I dont want any more than friends kind of thing.

@DixsyDxisy: I-like-you-but-I-just-want-you-to-know-that-I-like-you-and-I-want-to-keep-being-friends-and-I-dont-want-any-more-than-friends-

@DixsyDxisy: Until-we-are-ready-and-meant-for-each-other kind of thing

@DixsyDxisy: I know it's kinda lame but I want it that way not bcs I hated you

@DixsyDxisy: But because I'm scared.

I have a dream.

My dream is to have a house near a lake, a two-storey house with white walls, dark brown roof, whit and dark brown fences. Then a small bean shaped swing in the front porch. Then doors and the windows are like the english houses. And it has an attic. I would have an attic just in case one of my children wanted a room like in thos tumblr. And on the roof of the attic, there's a seenthrough window. For the kids to see the stars and appreciate the existance of the universe. And sometimes, me and husband would sit near the lake, and picnic. A few decorations. On our anniversarry, I would make all the plans and deco. And I would surprize him with one meal and another. And the last part, is the present.  

To the boys I have loved before pt. 1

Let's go back to when we were small,

When we had a fight

And exchanged letters

And that letter passed through the class

But neither would read it

Except us

I miss those days,

When I think our love was very innocent

It was a puppy love but I think

I think it was the sweetest puppy love I've ever had

Your mom likes me

It felt great

I liked you i really do

Back then, we were too young

I've liked you

But I was scared

I was raised forbid to have any relationship

So I was scared

I was thinking about my parents

I wasn't ready.

But i've always like you

And still now I couldn't forget you.

We were a bunch of kids

Too young to know what love is

But it was real

I really really liked you back then.

I'm sorry I pushed you away and lied.

When I shouldn't.

I swear to god kau lelaki paling kuat pms!

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Usually this day I would be at home celebrating with my family. But not this year. I dont usually like birthdays. It makes you feel older. Well you are getting older tho. And it makes me feel that I'm running out of time; One year closer to death. And the day itself makes me miserable. Like a kind of badluck. 

This year is a rather unique. I'm sure I didnt tell anyone abt my birthday (maybe the past month but that's just my roomates). Actually I even forget when is my birthday these few weeks (sibuk exam). As always, I've never celebrated my birthday with friends (bcs usually no one remembers) but it's okay. Takde harapan tinggi tu bagus jugak. And that's why I didnt tell anyone. Rasa malas. Like anyone would even care abt my birthday. Nak tengok jugak ada yg ingat tak. huhu 

And when everyone wished me in front of my face I just dont know how to react. I'm touched and shy and wanted to cry but awkward and speechless and grateful and i feel so touched that a nobody's birthday like me getting wishes and remembered. (you know who you are 💕) ((rasa nak peluk everyone tp malu and konon nak tunjuk cool)) And then I got a cake! JAKUN SBB DPT ONE WHOLE CAKE! Thankyou Syada for the lovely cake which I still havent cut it. (Waiting for everyone to get back!) dahlah tgh baring-baring tiba2 terjengul kotak kt sebelah kepala. I couldnt say more. Nak nangis tp air mata jantan taknak keluar So cuma tinggal malunya je. 💖 Then mah bro here kunun nak surprise iols dgn bawak belon hitam putihnya last-last satu bocor, terbang tiga biji dek Najla, tinggal satu buat sedut helium. Saya dipampered dengan Chemistry Lab dan Murni padahal before keluar tu dah makan nasi lauk ikan masak sweet sour. Lepastu lepak padang terlepas 3 belon sambil bergelak ketawa, tawaf Setia City Mall. Tak kering gusi layan korang bergossip sana dgn punchline sini dgn hipsternya. I got a very good time.

Thankyou everyone for the wishes sangat terharu sbb korang igt iols yg picisan ni. Huhuhu :') ALL OF YOU MADE MY DAY!!!! 😊💕 (i dont mean to offence and no bad intentions to anyone 😊) #vscocam #happybirthday

Friends & bestfriends

What makes I dont have any friends?

I used to have though. But friendship are as fragile as it is. I have tons. What's sad about having a lot of friends? Is that none of them are real. They are only your friends when they needed you. No one remembers your birthday. I dont remember any of my friends' birthday so it's normal for no one to wish me. I should expect that to happen.

But bestfriends? Are bullshit. I need real friends. 

Updated: they remembered my birthday. I'm so touched and felt so guilty. I'm sorry guys. I love you. Thankyou so much for your kindness. 

Me as a parent

1) No internet for my children except for school works. And I will be guiding it. 

2) No phones for my children except emergency cases until minimum 16 years old. 

3) No coming home late! Except I know the truth.

4) No television except on weekends. Weekdays only tutorial tv.

5) No coupling with anyone and I will have to know who do they like!

6) I would let them read books.

7) I will let my children go to Tahfiz school after finish SPM.

8) I will give them bedtime stories about the history of Islam.

9) Age 5 learn to solah and read iqra'

10) Age 7 will get rotan if they skipped solah.

11) i will make them hafaz al-kahfi sentence per sentence.

12) Teach them to lower their gaze from they're still small

13) teach them to wear proper dress. 

14) jemaah subuh, maghrib and isya'.

15) i will ask their problem, check pn them, ask their day, keep them company while they are studying and teach them too.

16) teach them about Islam and give them proper example.

Dari Mummy #2

Sayang, ingat pesan mummy. Mulai dari sekarang, kalau awak nampak wanita yang cantik dimata, tundukkan pandangan. Tundukan walaupun rasa rugi kerana nampak wanita yang cantik bagaikan bidadari. Insyallah kalau ada bidadari sebenar dan halal untuk awak, awak tak perlu lagi tundukan pandangan dari dia. Sebab dia sepenuhnya milik awak.

Dari Mummy #1

Tahu tak, Mummy kalau boleh taknak awak bercinta pun. Mummy taknak awak bergelumangan dengan dosa. Mummy nak awak ikut syarak. Boleh kalau awak nak sukakan seseorang kerana perasaan itu fitrah manusia dan perasaan itu juga datang dari Allah. Sebenarnya itu ujian Allah, nak tengok sama ada kita sayang Dia atau tak. Perasaan suka ni kalau tak dikawal boleh membawa kita ke arah maksiat. Kalau awak sayang Allah, awak jauhi maksiat tu. Macam mana? Kalau awak sukakan seseorang, awak mengadu pd Dia. Berdoa, kalau si dia terbaik untk aku, maka satukan kami dalam keredhaanMu. Kalau dia mula menyentuh awak, kamu berdua mendekati zina dan zina itu adalah dosa besar. Allah murka. Allah benci orang yan berzina. Kenapa zina tak boleh? Zina boleh mendatang penyakit yang memudaratkan. Bukan fizikal, juga emosi. Zina juga menghitamkan hati kita dan menjadikan kita sebahagian golongan jahiliyah. Itu juga tanda lelaki itu hanya pandang awak dgn pandangan nafsu dan dia tak menghormati maruah awak.  Sebab tu, Mummy menghalang awak bercinta dgn dia sbb Mummy nak halang awak dari membuat maksiat. Kalau Munmy tak halang, dosa bukan sahaja melekat ke awak, malah Mummy dgn Daddy pun mendapat saham dosa. Bila kita dihitung amalan, dosa dan pahala, awak yang akan tarik Mummy, Daddy, dgn semua keluarga kita ke Neraka. Mummy taknak mcm tu. Mummy nak kita  kejar syurga Allah. Awak faham? Selagi tiada ikatan sah, awak simpan perasaan tu. Beritahu Mummy atau Allah. In shaa Allah, kalau itu jodoh terbaik awak, Allah akan pasti satukan, ya sayang? Percaya pada Allah. 

Update: Mummy nak awak kawan je dgn dia. Maksud Mummy kawan tu mmg betuul2 kawan. Bukan "saya awak", "abang sayang"

Roommates

There would be a time when your roomates hate you and they create a whatsapp group but you're excluded. 

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